Why Prayer Can Be Scary

"Praying is no easy matter. It demands a relationship in which you allow someone other than yourself to enter into the very center of your person, to see there what you would rather leave in darkness, and to touch there what you would rather leave untouched." -- Henri J.M. Nouwen (quoted in my mother's church bulletin last Sunday)

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