Vicious Circle

I am afraid to smile at you.

What if you don't smile back?

Does it mean that you don't like me?

Or did you just not see?

I smiled, but you just looked away.

And now I feel abandoned.

Rejected.

Ashamed to think that I was worth smiling at.

Maybe I shouldn't have smiled in the first place.

Maybe you should have smiled back.

Now, how will you feel if I don't smile at you?

Oh, please, smile back.  I'm dying here.

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